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Cane family this is alot to take in so if you read it all buckle up lol I’m going on 37 years in January I ignored my health my entire life and now I'm at the end of the road. This post if for everyone anyone who has ignored their health or lost hope or is battling something because we all are every day. Any type of home holistic remedies for any type of relief is appreciated if you know anyone who has gone through this.
My thought and words below before I’m gone:
I have stage 4 colon/terminal cancer and I’m not doing well. I felt it start in 2011 and went to the doctor and they couldn’t figure out what was happening, then 2015 I started bleeding from the bathroom and cancer cells consumed my body lymph nodes lungs everything. I just lived with it I gave up hope, it consumed me. It’s now 2026 and I’m just about gone can’t believe I’m even still alive. I go to bed praying not knowing if I’ll wake up, I wake up praying not knowing if I’ll make it through the day. I can barely go to the bathroom and struggle with any form of labor. From the outside I don’t seem like I’m almost dead but I am. I’m way past the point of recovery. I am still working somehow, I get home and can barely move and drink the pain away but it’s to the point where I can’t keep doing it anymore I’m tapped out.
I apologize for being very raunchy on this forum at times and I'm in no way shape or form judging or criticizing any one with what they post. Im just speaking the truth from my heart. I was raised by my parents to trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean on him not on your own understanding. I gave my life to God when I was a child and again I surrendered to God in 2013 when I realized how bad my health was and two years of not really trying just to fall right back into the trap that put me in this position. I slept with many woman out of lust my entire life and after 2015 I fell in a pit of despair and I’m currently climbing out of it as I type this. These women were beautiful in every way. I literally could not control myself from them because I allowed myself to be controlled by evil. I have been a *** addict most of my life and I believe it crontributed to where I’m at now in life physically. I am mentally and physically drained from being lost. Hopeless for my body’s future because I destroyed it but I’ve been spending time praying and time speaking with The Lord and trying slowly to understand we’re all here for him. In my last moments on earth I want to change the people around me in my life for the better. His WORD is true you should read it as I am now and I have also started watching the series The Chosen and it’s very good to show us in flesh instead of slowly reading scripture how Jesus is the lamb of God and was sent to walk this earth and die for our sins to then be resurrected so we may have eternal life in heaven. People on earth want riches fame fortune which matters in some ways here but in the end we all turn back to ash into the ground and what is left over is our Soul.
I’m sincere in this message because I truly care about my Cane family and I will pray for you all until I’m gone. I hope my words touches some of your hearts maybe someone needed to hear this.
Go Canes!
My thought and words below before I’m gone:
I have stage 4 colon/terminal cancer and I’m not doing well. I felt it start in 2011 and went to the doctor and they couldn’t figure out what was happening, then 2015 I started bleeding from the bathroom and cancer cells consumed my body lymph nodes lungs everything. I just lived with it I gave up hope, it consumed me. It’s now 2026 and I’m just about gone can’t believe I’m even still alive. I go to bed praying not knowing if I’ll wake up, I wake up praying not knowing if I’ll make it through the day. I can barely go to the bathroom and struggle with any form of labor. From the outside I don’t seem like I’m almost dead but I am. I’m way past the point of recovery. I am still working somehow, I get home and can barely move and drink the pain away but it’s to the point where I can’t keep doing it anymore I’m tapped out.
I apologize for being very raunchy on this forum at times and I'm in no way shape or form judging or criticizing any one with what they post. Im just speaking the truth from my heart. I was raised by my parents to trust in the Lord with all my heart and lean on him not on your own understanding. I gave my life to God when I was a child and again I surrendered to God in 2013 when I realized how bad my health was and two years of not really trying just to fall right back into the trap that put me in this position. I slept with many woman out of lust my entire life and after 2015 I fell in a pit of despair and I’m currently climbing out of it as I type this. These women were beautiful in every way. I literally could not control myself from them because I allowed myself to be controlled by evil. I have been a *** addict most of my life and I believe it crontributed to where I’m at now in life physically. I am mentally and physically drained from being lost. Hopeless for my body’s future because I destroyed it but I’ve been spending time praying and time speaking with The Lord and trying slowly to understand we’re all here for him. In my last moments on earth I want to change the people around me in my life for the better. His WORD is true you should read it as I am now and I have also started watching the series The Chosen and it’s very good to show us in flesh instead of slowly reading scripture how Jesus is the lamb of God and was sent to walk this earth and die for our sins to then be resurrected so we may have eternal life in heaven. People on earth want riches fame fortune which matters in some ways here but in the end we all turn back to ash into the ground and what is left over is our Soul.
I’m sincere in this message because I truly care about my Cane family and I will pray for you all until I’m gone. I hope my words touches some of your hearts maybe someone needed to hear this.
Go Canes!
